November 2012
1 post
Ever have that moment when someone u care about so deeply,and so passionatly,stops to acknowledge you amd over a lie? When you know you did nothing wrong amd would never do something to hurt this person EVER but they dont believe you? That heartbreaking,earthshattering,mind bending tear tusami of a moment where everything u hold dear is destroyed? And because he won’t believe...
October 2012
3 posts
Nothing to forget? Your right…ill forget how much I love you. I’ll forget how much I’ve cried. I’ll forget how much I’ve given for and to you. I’ll forget those nights of lust and sex,God knows there were many. I’ll forget how I long for you. I’ll forget how much I care. I’ll forget how much I care. But then that would make me a fool….so...
I lied. Im posting. But its not anything good or happy. I am dealing with a broken heart. How is it that good people have to act stupid and so cruel? And why is it that the people that TRUELY CARE are the ones that suffer? How is it fair that I have to sit and wonder why,when this person is no longer speaking to me and won’t give the the courteous gesture of telling me why. And you know I...
August 2012
19 posts
Reblog if you'd care if I killed myself.
“I loved you at your darkest.”
– Romans 5:8 (via alecshao)
cj2heart: did you? will you? will you love me whn i put myself down and constantly vie for your attention? will you love me when i get so down again i hurt myself? will you love me when you see my fake smile,hear my fake laugh? will you love me when i cry myself to...
reblog this if you actually like following me.
July 2012
23 posts
If I was crying in the street just the most pathetic,wailing soul you ever saw....would you part my brunette curls and tell me its worth it???
” its not that they didn’t care that killed her,it was that they didn’t care enough.” annon.
me: why are those guys staring at me
me: is there something on my face
me: is there something on my shirt
me: they're probably laughing at how ugly i am
me: they probably find it amusing how fat i am
friend: maybe they think you're cute
me: are you retarded or something
Cj2heart: thats me.....oh is that me and so many more thoughts. :( self esteem what's that?
just bought myself a big ass birthday present…..alot of money……but worth it lol
God love and support those in Colorado and my prayers go to them. Its funny how this world works. The same day this sickening and terrible thing happens,a total stranger offers to buy my cup of coffee I ordered. How is it that some people on this world..no wait I know why…but it makes me wonder. How can one person be so kind and friendly while another will kill 15 and wound 50 and not care?...
so bored. I’m watching 3 small kids and i just implemented nap time. Peace and quiet for now. Bonus their daddy comes home in 2 hrs. Not too much longer before i get my freedom on my day off. Trying to be happy happy joy joy around them,again faking it. Kids are so pure and innocent love them for it. They have no idea what hell waits for them here in the real world. Sad really.
ALL I WANT IS HAPPINESS. SCREW MONEY,SCREW MATERIAL THINGS,ALL I WANT IS TO WAKE UP AND FEEL SO EUPHORICALLY HAPPY I WANNA HURL. I WANT PEOPLE TO LOOK AT ME AND HATE ME BECAUSE I AM SO HAPPY THEY DISPISE ME FOR IT. I WANT TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SEE THE MOST CONTENT FACE ON THE PLANET,SO PEACEFUL I MAKE GHANDI LOOK STRESSED. IM NOT ASKING FOR ALOT JUST ASKING TO BE HAPPY AND NOT BE OUTSIDE...
Ummmm...did anyone else see that program on discovery about real mermaids??? Im officially geeked about it.
June 2012
70 posts
i hate having to be strong. i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate having to pretend all the time. I AM NOT OK,I AM HURTING,I AM SAD,I WANT TO BE LOVED,I WANT TO BE HAPPY. I DO NOT WANT TO BE MISERABLE,I DO NOT WANT TO FAKE A LAUGH A SMILE “YEAH I FINE WHY” THEN SAY OR DO SOMETHING DUMB OR STUIP TO MAKE YOU COCENTRATE ON SOMETHING ELSE. I AM NOT...
