Ever have that moment when someone u care about so deeply,and so passionatly,stops to acknowledge you amd over a lie? When you know you did nothing wrong amd would never do something to hurt this person EVER but they dont believe you? That heartbreaking,earthshattering,mind bending tear tusami of a moment where everything u hold dear is destroyed? And because he won’t believe me…me….the one who was only everthere..never wanted anything else but him. And yet through all my loyalty and pleas of innocence,he turns with malice and coldness. Why? If I did nothing wrong,told not one lie,would u not believe me…..my heart bleeds now…..its embers cold now I feel nothing but pain….and confusion…..why.
Nothing to forget? Your right…ill forget how much I love you. I’ll forget how much I’ve cried. I’ll forget how much I’ve given for and to you. I’ll forget those nights of lust and sex,God knows there were many. I’ll forget how I long for you. I’ll forget how much I care. I’ll forget how much I care. But then that would make me a fool….so no I won’t forget. I won’t forget any of those things because I will always care…will always love. Even though you dont want me too…i cant turn it off. So I won’t try. I won’t forget.
I lied. Im posting. But its not anything good or happy. I am dealing with a broken heart. How is it that good people have to act stupid and so cruel? And why is it that the people that TRUELY CARE are the ones that suffer? How is it fair that I have to sit and wonder why,when this person is no longer speaking to me and won’t give the the courteous gesture of telling me why. And you know I care for u. This is hurting me. Killing me. This isn’t fair at all. Done nothing but care and be the person I am and be there thick amd thin bad and good. A broken heart is blind….but it still hears and feels. I dont want to be gone from you. I need you more than u know. Don’t hurt me like everyone else…..please. That goes for everyone. Stop hurting people. Cuz good,kind,loving people are getting hurt. We dont want to be apithetic.we dont want to go colder. Please dont.
cj2heart: this is the last thing i will be posting on here. sad because i really like being on here and talking to you guys and seeing the wonderful art and shiz. you all are amazing people and very talented with the word as your own personal playground. someday i wish to have the courage and the moxy to be more like my tumblr freinds. dont let the world and the assholes get you down and out. keep your head up and never stop being YOU. and just remember if you ever meet a girl who seems to have her wits about her,shes smart,quiet, a bitch,yet desperate and emotionally needy………love her. thats the only thing she,you,we need in life. LOVE. stay thirsty my freinds.
cj2heart: OMG HOW CUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AWWWWW I WANT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
